This broke my heart when she said this.
Like I know a lot of people didn’t like the way the store ended, but I feel like it was only because we still don’t know anything about Freddie. But if you really think about Effy, it was pretty perfect.
I mean for the first few times that we saw Effy, she didn’t say a word. Her parents didn’t notice her, she didn’t have any friends, all she had was Tony. He saved her life after she was took all those drugs, and a few night after that she watched him get hit by a bus and almost die.
She finally makes friends with Panda, and people from G2. But I mean look how fast that turned to shit. She was blamed for breaking up Freddie, JJ, and Cooks friendship. She thought she killed Katie while on drugs. She tried to stay with Cook, but loved Freddie and watched Cooks heart break. Oh ya and we can’t forget that she walked in on her mom cheating on her dad, and the fact that their fighting cause them to forget she was even there most of the time. And than she lost it. She than got a therapist that was sick, (like can we please find out what the FUCK was up with him) that she trusted, and told everything to, only to find out that he was brain washing her. All of this happened, with no call from Tony. So she was on her own. And when Freddie went to stand up for her, he was killed.
So her trying to stay in control had to do with the fact that she lost it once before and everything went to shit when that happend.
This is why this line was so heart breaking. She saw everything falling apart let it did before, and this was all the things she didn’t want to happen. She really did not want to fuck up anyones life any more.
That why her ending ( take out Emily and Naomi) was so perfect to me. Because this time she saved someone.